A new month is upon us,
the leaves have changed colour, there is a chill in the air, and the motorcycle is likely about to be put away for its winter hibernation. Well – once I have a garage built.
The biggest challenge that I have had in the last month is mastering a new routine. My wife has done the lions share of turning our new house into a home. So, I had to just work on the outside stuff, and get back into a new normal routine.
Physically, my body is not liking the change, and I need to learn to listen a little better to it. I think that it is a logical by-product of the last few months. Based on the repetition of the last 4 years, I believe that my body was expecting the summer treatments to knock it back down again, with substantial rest. But instead – it was subjected to substantially increased activity with a move nearly all the way across Canada (well ok – 5000 kilometers/3000 miles of it anyway), and then a greatly increased daily routine of going back to an office 5 days a week. Of course that makes weekends busier getting errands done.
Just like changing up your lifestyle for a weight loss program or new workout plan – your body will take its own measures to protect itself while it processes the change. I can notice these things, I just haven’t quite figured out how to help my body adapt to this one.
Mentally, I am liking the new routine. 4 years without “purpose” is a long time. It is good to have some tasks to do. The tasks aren’t challenging, but I have things to look forward to doing now.
Even things like getting up in the morning when the alarm goes off – it’s a task I didn’t really need to complete for most of the last 4 years. Get out the door and into traffic for a commute – it’s a task in the new routine (not as much as it sounds really).
Some of the biggest factors that contributed to the futuristic limbo are now answered. This gives me a timeline to plan for, and a known location (here). For the last 4 years, I couldn’t have told you where or when I would need to have my world organized. Now I know, and it’s a huge relief to have that knowledge. I can build a plan to achieve that final goal.
The real challenge becomes – how to “grow up and get a real job”.
This is where I really need to ask myself – do I need to or do I want to?
I have a few valid options for my employment future, and many different paths that I can take over the next couple of years to get there. But the main challenge becomes – when do I need to decide which path to take?
This becomes a procrastination dream or nightmare, depending on your perspective.
The decision could actually be simple – find which path keeps the most options open – choose that. But I don’t wanna.
So, me being me, I am looking at how to go down multiple paths at the same time. Mostly by looking at schooling options, and considering signing up for courses – one course for plan A, one course for plan B. Oh, and at the same time, do the work that will keep plan C available as well. What could go wrong? right…..
That has been much of what has occupied the far reaches of my brain this last month. With a 35 to 45 minute commute, I have been able to catch up on my podcasts, and now I can think of how I want to restructure my future.
On this blog site – I will still keep up the posts, my greatest challenge is that I think “cancer sucks” is not the right domain that I should keep going with my “society sucks” run of posts. I actually want them somewhere else, so that I can make a playlist for it. I have a few options that I am trying to see if I can make them work. I also might record them as VLOGS for my YouTube channel (the more serious one – not my more goofball one).
I am still working on my big 50,000 km bike video (probably not as big as one thinks), and have a few more ideas for cooking videos. I have solidified my ideas for some scripts – they will be in the professional development, event planning, leadership field. They might become the VLOGS. One of the courses I have in mind will help separate a bunch of these concepts so that I can still maintain the Cancer predominance of these blogs for the subscribers.
Hopefully next month, I will be telling you about my first cysto in Halifax, there will be some garage build photos (and probably a video too), and I should have a better grasp on how I am going to format the new changes.
Thanks for sticking around with me through this journey – I know that now we are starting a new chapter on rebuilding my life vs going through treatments, so I appreciate that you still stick with me through it.
Featured photo is Peggy’s Cove, NS. Got a nice ride down there before the rains came.